Nothing

I question my life, debate my purpose
Pain follows me, drains everything
No one to talk to
Don't really want anyone to talk to

Don't want to bring people down
I keep a goofy clown smile, hide it all
Maybe that's my fall
She rises to the top

Memories haunt me, good, bad
Wish it was a fad, gone in an instance
But it isn't, burned into my mind
I got to find a way to pass it

But my past won't let me
I guess I'm paying the ultimate fee
It was so clear, but I couldn't see it
So stupid, looking for Cupid

Not a day goes by without me thinking
Not a day goes where I wish I could be drinking
Drowning in my sorrow
Wishing there was no tomorrow.

You had a dream where I ended it
I laughed it off, but now I want to ask, how?
Just another regret, take a bet how many more I have
The only threat to me is me

I need a detox, but that day ain't here.
Just wish I could flip it, side B on the cassette
Not yet says the brunette
So upset over nothing, but it must be something.

Can't bring myself to talk to her in person, so I do it over songs
How fucking sad is that?
State Fair, wish I had no air, can't bare to remember it
So happy, what a joke

But that's what I am, a comedian
So my life is a fucking joke
Just wish I could choke and croak
I just want to end it
Wasted my life, for what?

I ask myself that everyday
Wish I could turn back time
Four songs, hoping to forget you
I might as well just name this fucking album after you

I would, but I fear if I did you'd see it
I try not to cry as I lie to myself
Hoping these tears will dry by the time I'm done
What do I have to lose?
Nothing.